Currently Listening Infinity on High By Fall Out Boy Thriller see related

anna nicole smith died today.

that is so sad.

i was never a big fan. i never have been. i don't even know her story really.

but i still find it horribly and utterly sad.

god bless her.

anyways. several small announcements:

1. INFINITY ON HIGH

holy mother fucking shit.

now, here's the deal. i am and have always been a pretty damn dedicated fall out boy fan. i mean, i wasn't there since take this to your grave, but i was there from the pretty close beginning of from under the cork tree. but that doesn't really matter. i'm just saying i've heard their stuff.

because fan elitism is fucking retarded.

anyone who says that they're a better fan because they've liked them for longer should go fuck themselves. really.

it doesn't matter. it's music. and music is love.

but i like take this to your grave. it's got some really catchy numbers. it's got a little more edgy edge to it with some heavier guitar parts than their later stuff so it attracted a certain "scene." they played some pretty crazy basements and stuff in their early days, so that's their core foundation. they've really got some pretty great fans too. i'd have to say my favorite songs off that album are... patron saints, chicago, and saturday.

then along came from under the cork tree, and fall out boy's fame and appeal fucking skyrocketed. sugar was phenomial, and even though it's ridiculously overplayed now, you have to admit the first time that you heard it, you loved it.

or at least i did.

that CD showed a little more maturity and mastering of their talents and instruments which allowed them to really vary their songs. it's a very nice CD, really. my favorite tracks off of it are... of all the gin joints, sophomore slump, and sixteen candles.

and now we've got the extremely highly anticipated infinity on high.

they're the band you love to hate. it's literally cool to hate fall out boy.

if you like fall out boy, you're either a fucking poser or a retarded emo kid who has more hoodie sweatshirts than a kid in alaska.

but to that, i say nay.

(heh. lex. nay. naught. paolini.)

if you listen to fall out boy superficially and take only the melody of the music with a few lines of the chorus, then, yeah you're probably going to end up with a "poser."

but peter's lyrics take some of the really hurtful things in life, especially regarding heartache and rejection, and takes them with a spoonful of dry humor and really makes some pretty damn good lyrics. not only that, but the music liscense that fall out boy has taken with this album is really quite amazing.

you've got an almost boy-band sounding song like i'm like a lawyer (which is one of my personal favorite with the line "if i woke up next to you") to the ballad sounding song golden each giving fall out boy a completely different kind of name.

it's true, their music doesn't have the "punk" edge that they might have had in take this to your grave or from under the cork tree, but if a band stayed the same throughout their entire career, what would the accomplish?

i think in this album, peter really allowed himself to just write what he felt and not so much what he felt was expected of him. i think he wrote what he really wanted to with a bit of pizazz here and there, and it came out in a much more dance-y, pop-ish CD.

now is that bad?

of course not.

if a band does not evolve their style, then they're not much of a band, are they?

yes, the CD's different than stuff they've done before. but that doesn't mean we should toss it out the window. it's really a great CD and it's doing a fantastic job of entertaining me.

is it the most amazing album i've ever heard in my entire life? probably not.

is it as deep and will it affect me as much as MCR's the black parade? definitely not.

but it's definitely a very good album none the less.

if you don't have it, you should definitely go out and get it at best buy where they have it on discount. plus you can get bonus tracks.

which i still haven't gotten. damnit.

onto item number two.

2. ... shit. i don't remember what it was.

WAIT YES I DO.

2. HEROES!

ok i had to do something... on monday night. i think i was "writing my history paper" (which i didn't start until tuesday night...) or something, but anyways, i had to record it and then watch it.

but of course i FAIL at recording things. i really do. so instead of recording for an hour, it recorded for one minute.

i was so pissed.

but then i realized that they have all of the episodes online. XD

so i just watched that last night at like one am. it was amazing.

ok so. i adore zack. he's cute. and he makes me smile. i don't know if i ship claire x zack, but i definitely support him as a character. i think he was supposed to be gay at one point, or maybe that was just a joke, but i don't think he is anymore.

which is odd.

anyways.

and. sylar. if he wasn't so creepy and trimmed up his eyebrows a little bit, he could be nice looking too.

but good fucking god, he is CREEPY AS FUCKING HELL in this episode.

the CREEPIEST/SCARIEST scene EVER in this whole season/show so far was in... it must have been the one after homecoming i think.

when peter was like in that cell. or something.

and it was like nathan talking to him.

BUT THEN IT WAS SYLAR.

OHMYGOD.

ok, i was watching that episode on my computer with my headphones while i was talking to one of my friends online and such and i was like kind of watching but then for that like ten seconds i was really watching and i literally jumped and screamed out of my chair.

anyways. yeah sylar's obsession with claire is just a LITTLE creepy.

ummm... the whole hiro part this episode was kind of odd. slightly disappointing. i wanted his dad to like know something important. but instead he was all like "rawr come home and work with me."

that's kind of boring.

and WTFrank. jessica went all like CRAZY on that doctor woman. that's creepy. god, poor nikki. i feel really bad for her.

except. you know, she doesn't really have a power. she's just. weird.

hahahaha.

or maybe it'll be further explained.

anyways ummm... oh peter + invisible man.

does invisible man even have a name?

i don't know.

but i like him. i think i trust him for the most part. i think his method of training is intereseting and i'm excited to see how it goes.

symone + isaac.

man, i really like isaac. he's pretty badass. plus he got clean! which should score him major points with symone! i mean hello. she liked him while he was HIGH. why wouldn't you like a SOBER isaac?

plus. he's pretty.

although he IS battling with peter... who is milo. who is LOVE.

but really. i ship... well actually. i'm not sure i ship isaac and symone (am i even spelling her name right?) but i definitely want isaac to have a love interest. he's too amazing not to. i want to give him a hug.

umm... OH CLAIRE AND HER MOM.

HUZZAH!

they did a great job casting whoever her mom is. they look pretty close alike to be taken for mother and daughter. that's pretty spiffy.

and i like how they did her fire thing. it looks pretty great.

anddd... yeah that whole mother/daughter thing was greatness.

oh and WTF. NATHAN. YOU WHORE.

he really is.

but i totally called that. i KNEW he was going to be her dad. i mean, hello. i knew that they wouldn't have introduced another new character with that teaser that they gave us last week.

it was obviously someone we knew.

and. it just had to be nathan.

which. is odd.

so NO PETER X CLAIRE SHIPPING.

BECAUSETHATISJUSTWRONG.

incest = BOO.

ok. that's all on that episode.

number threeeee

3. LOST! HUZZAH!

well, this episode is definitely starting to turn the ridiculously boring third season around quite quickly. and thank god. i was going to have to shoot someone.

so alex is ben's daughter.

that's weird.

i definitely didn't see that coming.

she's REALLY pretty though.

and rawr carl had to go away! *sadnessss*

um. but yay for jack saving the day.

yay for juliet being a total BADASS.

yay for danny (WHY MUST HIS NAME BE DANNY?) getting dead.

yay for learning more about juliet.

blah blah blah.

and huzzah for kate and sawyer.

OHMYGODSAWYER.

HIS LINES ARE AMAZING.

i will put some up here. because. i just adore him.

later though because the internet man is working on my internet so it'll stop being a bitch and actually work sometimes.

ok i really think that's it.

i don't have any icons or shit for you.

i'm sorry.

:(

oh oh oh.

but here are some countdowns for you:

My Birthday: 12 days

My Chemical Romance Concert in California: 34 days

Edge Fest: 66 days

Last Day of School: 105 days (shiiiiit... lol)

Lost Valley: 122 days (GAHYAY!!!!)

Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix movie: 155 days

Warped Tour: 156 days (ah those two are so close together!!!! HUZZAH!!!)

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: 163 days

WHEEEEE!!!!

i'm going to be SEVENTEEN.

EXCITEMENT!!!!!

also. on a side note that only one person will want to read.

i don't think i could fully operate without alexis. she's my platonic soulmate.

not to mention she has the other half of my brain.

i think we're something like twins taken from birth.

except she got the tall gene.

and i got the blonde one.

and. ok, well we're kind of physically opposite in every way you can think of.

i mean, i'm short.

i'm as short as frank is.

and we all know that that is short.

i wouldn't be able to lift the coffin.

:(

but anyways, that's beside the point.

the point IS that i just wanna say, as i have on many other occasions, that i love you, lex. and i don't know where the hell i'd be without you.

i'd probably be one of the most miserable wretches out there.

i'd only have peter and gerard's words to comfort me.

so. thanks for sticking by me. through my ridiculously ranting and whatever the hell my problems happen to be.

i'd go to the gates of hell for you.

sisters in arms.

anyways (anybryars) that's all kiddos.

sorry it's not a very exciting post.

maybe icons and stuff next time, k?

<333

-laura

Currently Listening Don't You Fake It By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Face Down see related

 so i was going to wait for ALEXIS to make a real comment on my last entry before i posted another one.

but you know what?

i'm bored.

and i want to post again.

so you know what, just fuck life. hahahah.

i have two things for you dears.

well, no three.

number one is HUZZAH! NEW LAYOUT!

oh gerard. you make me smile. a lot.

and wtf his quote down in my little bar thingy. i fucking love him for saying that. i could hug him.

number two is a response that i wrote to a girl on livejournal who had some questions about MCR and needed some help.

number three are ICONS!

but you have to wait until the end of the post.

XD

so without further ado, here is what i have to say about MCR.

-How has MCR changed/saved your life or people you know?

I've personally been blessed enough not to be in a situation where my life needed to be physically saved and that is something that I'm always thankful for. But I think emotionally, music has been the one thing that always gets me through rough times. Specifically, MCR has done more for me than any band has ever done. I think they might always be the most important band ever to me. The fact that they make music more than just music. It's not a cult... but it has a real message, and I think that's a lot more than other people can say about other music. I mean, you've always got uplifting songs that are meant to make people see that life's alright or a song that gives people something to think about. But I feel as though MCR takes it a step further. They look at those things that sometimes people don't want to confront, like death. But they don't look at it with that typical view that a lot of other bands do. They take it seriously and address all of the feelings that come with it.

I think also it's more than their music that's changed me. I think it's the band members as well. I know that I don't know them and most likely never will. But the way that they talk about their music and their thoughts about life in genearl are always really, really inspirational. There was this one interview with... Frank and Gerard I think back in... October... I think they were in Japan, but I'm not entirely sure. Anyways, Gerard was talking about self-expression and how kids should really explore their own way to express themselves, and that right now is what's really impacting my life. I've always struggled with figuring out who it is that I am and what makes me who I am, and listening to him talk about that made me realize what I can do to help myself in that quest. He helped me to find a slightly more creative side to myself, a side that I'm currently pursuing, not in music, but in writing. Also who they seem to be as people... they just seem so incredibly down to earth and just not caught up into the whole "rock star" thing. I know people tend to say that about a lot of bands, but I honestly believe that with MCR's case, it's true. And I think that they're one of the only bands that I actually respect. I truly respect what they have to say and how they say it and I respect each of them as individual people.

But to put it in a nutshell, MCR's changed my life by encouraging me to find out who I really am and to find my own medium of self-expression. I've always had self-esteem issues and with their help, I've become a little more easy with discussing my opinions and not taking other people's shit.

-How do you think MCR has affected their scene in general?

Hmm. I think... I'm speaking generally from what I've seen and heard, so I'm not speaking for everyone, but what I feel is a vast majority. I think that they give people hope. And not just a three minute song of hope. I think they give people real and geniune hope of life. I think they've helped kids that they're really not alone in this world and there are other people who feel exactly the same fucked up feelings that they feel. I think a lot of people in the age group that you're talking about have the tendency to feel completely alone, and it's a natural thing, but it's also not true. There are always unique circumstances, but those same feelings of loneliness I think every kid feels.

-Are other genres like rap or pop as positively influential as punk, rock, and MCR specifically?

I hate to generalize music because not everything fits into things, but generally, I tend to feel that rap and pop just do not have that real and positive influence that MCR has on kids. Some of my friends are really big into the pop and rap songs and I just can't see their appeal other than happy-go-lucky songs. I mean, I'll admit it. I have my weak pop addictions. I adore Xtina and I would kill to listen to some pop music every now and then. I love it. It's upbeat and it's just plain fun to listen to.

But as far as life-inspiring and influential? I just don't see it. I need fun in my music, but I need something deeper. I need something that means something. The lyrics to a lot of rap songs (again, I'm generalizing here) just disgust me. They're "fun" I guess, but they're definitely not inspiring. And they're certainly not positive. It makes me wonder sometimes how the kids who grow up listening to songs about mindless sex and alcohol turn out. I'm not music bashing, but I just can't see the appeal.

-Has music replaced religion among musically active 14-25 year olds?

Ah. Huh. That's pretty interesting actually. Just to give you my point of view, I'm a Christian believer whose having some struggles in her faith about things completely unrelated to music and such.

Personally, mixing music and religion gets an interesting combo. I usually listen to music that reflects my morals and values, which is why you won't see me listening to "Smack That" or whatever it is in my spare time. I like to bring my music influences in whenever I talk about faith jsut because music is such a big part of my life.

I think that music and media in general is the teaching aid for kids these days, so in that case, it's possible that music and media is taking over religion. Music definitely reflects what a listener's morals and values are and by listening to certain kinds of music, I think that a person's morals and values can change. But I don't think kids are necessarily "worshipping" music. I know kids, myself included, rely on music so heavily that it is such a big part of our lives that it seems like it might be taking over. I don't know.

-How and which bands other than MCR have changed/saved you life?

Oh, another good question. Well, my first bands that I loved were the typical Simple Plan and Good Charlotte. Totally obsessed with them. They were my first taste into "punk" music. (If anyone comments me to bitch me out about how they're not punk, I will smite you. Arguements about genres are ridiculous. I'm just saying that SP and GC were much more "punk" than anything that I had been listening to.) SP and GC were my first stepping stone into more influential music in my life. They introduced me into the whole scene of bands and led me to bands like Fall Out Boy, Avenged Sevenfold, and others who led to The Hush Sound, Jack's Mannequin, Motion City Soundtrack, etc. Bands kept leading me to other bands until I found My Chemical Romance, and even they keep leading me to other bands. In that way, lots of other bands have affected me and changed me by the things that I've been introduced and exposed to. But I don't think any other band has ever affected me as much. The only ones that come close are SP and GC and that's mostly because they were my first big music leap with sevearl inspirational songs like "Untitled," "We Believe," "Hold On," "Crazy," and a few others.

-Why do you think MCR is/isn't so influential?

God. So many things I could say about this. I think that they're incredibly influential to the kids that open themselves up to their music. If you scorn them and refuse to listen to the true message that these five guys are trying to bring to people all around the world, then of course, they're not going to do much in your life. But if you really open yourself up to the possibility, I think it's incredible what this band can do.

This really is a band that can save lives.

I know for me, as I've said, they've influenced me to explore myself and determine who I am as a person. And that, the fact that you are an incredible person with individual thoughts and feelings and that you are not like anyone else in the entire world, is something that not a lot of people realize and I think MCR realizes that and they want kids to know that they aren't just fucked up kids. They're people.

At the same time that everyone is different, I think they also realize that everyone can be brought together in human similiarties. We all have the same feelings about typically the same things. We all fear death. We all want love. It's human nature. And I think what MCR does very well is that they take those feelings and really explore them until the bring out all of the both glorious and ugly things about everything that matters in life.

-How much time do you spend listening to music in general?

Oh, if I'm at home or if I'm able to listen to my iPod, I'll always be listening to something It's kind of insane. But umm... if I had to make a guess... I'd say... eight hours a day? Maybe nine? I'd say I average anywhere from eight to ten hours a day. I think. I'm usually doing other things when I listen to music also.

-How much do you spend on music in general?

Mmm... I have my friends burn a lot of CDs for me and I download things off yousendit.com boards a lot, so I don't spend as much as I should on music. But if it's a band that I really love and support, I will definitely go out and actually buy the album. That's not very specific, I'm sorry. I don't really even have a guess for that.

haha.

that's a lot of shit to read.

ok anyways. um.

i hope you enjoyed that.

now for my final thing, i have made icons which i hope you all will enjoy.

they're better than my last batch.

i think.

if i can remember which ones were in my last batch...

hmm...

ahaha. frankie. <33

ILOVETHECOLORINGONTHIS.

YAY FOR PSP!!!

and for gee just being so amazing. XD.

huzzah for coloring and for frankie being adorableee!

loveeeee. i have no idea what the fuck i did to get that.

i was just like *SPAZ*

gee as sirius black.

and bob in the background.

i really like that one.

gee looks like such a badass there.

ahaha. i support the ferard friendship.

gerard : frankie :: alexis : laura

it's true.

last.fm iconnn. have i posted this already?

i don't know.

i don't remember if i've posted that one either.

that picture of gee and frank is seriously the cutest picture EVER.

that's one of my personal favorites. :)

ahahahaha. another great one.

love.

ahahahahahhaha. i think this one might be my favorite one ever.

<3333 x 898406850680586058 billion

huzzah.

ok. that's all the icons and news and stuff i have for you today.

nothing much is going on in my life.. not really. um. alexis is amazing. just. you know. throwing that out there.

ummmmm. she'd better get ungrounded soon. lol. XD

no, that's about it.

although, i did have a funny thought today during class when i was supposed to be paying attention, but i totally wasn't.

as if that happens to anyone else.

but um, i was thinking... i think i was thinking about like guys. and how i've never been in a serious relationship or something and i turn seventeen next month (!!!!!!!!!!!!) and stuff.

and then i was like "... you know what. i'm so excited to meet the guy that i'm going to date for a really long time. or marry. or something. because. he's got to be one hell of an amazing guy to be able to stand all of my ranting about things that don't even make SENSE."

i mean seriously. i'm SO looking forward to meet whoever this guy happens to be. he's going to be insane. and it's going to make me so ridiculously happy.

i don't even know if that rant made sense.

but it makes sense to me.

and it just makes me laugh how there really is a person out there who can relate to the same things that i can and actually likes me back.

it's kind of funny.

i so can't wait to meet him.

we're going to have a BLAST.

the end.

(DEAD!)

<333

leave comments, dears.

oh, and if you steal my icons, credit me.

failure in doing so will result in gerard coming to your house to suck your blood.

ahahahahhaa. jk, jk. love of the first CD. that's definitely printed along the side of the first CD. and it's amazing. XD

but no, he will come and beat you up.

we're tight like that.

(wtfno)

<333 laura

Currently Listening Famous Last Words By My Chemical Romance Kill All Your Friends see related

ok well. alexis and i finally saw friday night lights together. and now i've seen it three times.

and oh my god.

it's SO good.

it's easily my favorite acting job that garrett (two t's) hedlund has done so far. i haven't seen four brothers yet, but that's definitely on my list next.

umm...

there's not much to really say besides the fact that he was ridiculously amazing.

plus his character makes me cry like a baby.

in other news, school is a fucking bitch.

i was up until three last night studying for a latin test because i was retarded and didn't start studying for it until... like midnight. because i was too distracted. i think i was talking to lex.

what else is new.

but also then... i had to read fuck hinn (wait. sorry. i mean huck finn). and that was just stupid. i hate it. not the book so much as having to identify themes. it don't hate it because it's hard. i hate it because it's pointless.

i really just want the ghost of mark twain to come in an slit mr. randall's throat or something.

umm... what else...

oh, the song heaven help us by MCR is fucking ridiculous.

i'm completely addicted to it.

just in case you were wondering.

and i also think it's a great song because it feels like an epilouge to the story of The Black Parade.

basically, we all know that the CD is a story about The Patient who's "died" of cancer at a young age, and the CD is describing that.

but my thoughts on it is that his story starts with The End. as kind of an opening song. it feels like the prolouge from romeo and juliet, you know? which is an amazing play. the movie makes me cry. it's one of my favorite shakespeare plays too.

anyways, The End is basically going "ok. this is a story. so listen up."

now come one,

come all,

to this tragic affair

i get the feeling that this narrator is a lot like gerard if it isn't gerard himself. he seems slightly crazy, very spaztic, and very "HUZZAH"-ish.

another contusion

my funeral jag

here's my resignation

i'll serve it in drag

that kind of sounds like the patient talking, but i think the patient is a lot more solemn than that. it sounds like the narrator.

or at least that's how it starts. i think then it switches voices to the patient.

save me

get me the hell out of here

save me

too young to die and my hear,

you can't

anyways, then the CD moves right into Dead! and i love how it moves right into it. it's great. for the longest time, i thought that it was one song.

anyways, i basically invision this as... almost a guide or dante's vergil kind of person talking, if you get what i mean who's talking.

or really, it's probably more of the narrator who's acting like a dante-vergil.

have you heard the news that you're dead?

i'm sure it switches from narrator to the patient every once in awhile. it's hard to pin point it exactly. but basically the patient is realizing that he's very, very, very close to death, if not already dead.

i see it as he's more in an in between stage.

like you've heard those stories when people are like "i was in surgery and they said my heart stopped, and i felt as though i was outside of my body."

that's how i see it as.

as if the patient is in that tunnel where the light is. but he's not walking towards it.

and in my honest observation

during this operation

found a complication

in your heart, so long

'cause now you've got

maybe just to weeks to live

oh, is that the most that you both can give?

(on a side note, i would like to go on the record to say that frankie's la's are fucking amazing. that spaztic la la la la l'oh la makes my life.)

(and i love how gee is randomly like motherfucker)

and then i see the patient kind of being slighty depressed and sarcastic when he says

if life ain't just a joke

they why are we laughing?

if life ain't just a joke

then why am i DEAD?

ok and then we've got This Is How I Disappear.

i think that The Patient is just like "well. fuck. i'm dead. and this sucks. and i miss my lover."

at first i thought it was his lover that was talking, but then i was like "wait. no. it's him."

and without you is how i disappear

and live my life alone forever now.

i mean. you'd think that that's kind of the lover. maybe it's a song between them.

because i'd still say that The Patient can't really "live his life" if he's dead... or at least almost dead.

so i don't know.

gee, you're crazy.

but i think some if not all of it is The Patient feeling really lonely.

and if you could talk to me

tell me if it's so

that all the good girls go to heaven

he feels pretty fucked too if he doesn't think he's going to heaven.

can you hear me cry out to you?

words i thought i'd choke on

figure out i'm really not so with you anymore

i'm just a ghost

so i can't hurt you anymore.

it's really rather tragic.

and theeeen we've got The Sharpest Lives

which is a fucking kick ass song.

but i'm not really sure what it means... it feels like The Patient might be recalling back a time in his life where he was just living life pretty crazily...

'cause i've spent the night dancing

i'm drunk i suppose

'cause i love all the poison away with the boys in the band

it just sounds like a really messed up time in his life.

give me a shot to remember

and you can take all the pain away from me

a kiss and i will surrender

the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead

i think here... i don't really think he's talking about a girl. but more about the lifestyle in the form of a girl. like drinking and partying is so addictive like a girl that's just not good for you, you know?

and then this is a really interesting line, probably one of my favorite ones of the song:

a light to burn all the empires

so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be

in love with all of these vampires

so you can leave like the sane abandoned me

i think... i think here... the you refers to an actual girl this time. i mean, that's how i see it. a girl who The Patient really cares for, and she's also the "light that's ashamed to rise" and be in love with him, a vampire.

i mean, definitely not literally a vampire. i think he just feels so fucked up and almost... evil or wrong that he feels like a dark creature.

and he's felt like everything else has abandoned him, so he expects this girl to do the same.

and the Welcome To The Black Parade

we've all heard gee talk about this song like a thousand times, so i won't really go into depth on this song.

but it is one of the most sensational tracks on the album. it really does incorperate all of the risks that they took on this record and i think it's fucking unbelievable.

besides the fact that death comes for you in the way that you want in the form of your strongest memory... i think that it's a song that The Patient is singing about death... but you know, it's kind of an upbeat song. it, like famous last words, has a message of hope.

or you know what... i think The Patient definitely sings the "When i was a young boy" stuff.

but... you know.

i think that the "we'll carry on" is sung by someone else. i'm not entirely sure who. it feels as if it's sung by... The Patient's friends and family.

and though you're dead and gone, believe me

your memory will carry on

we'll carry on

as if they're singing to The Patient, tell him that it's okay to let go and die because they'll... well, carry on.

or you know. it might actually be the actual Parade that's singing that part.

your misery and hate will kill us all

so paint it black and take it back

let's shout it loud and clear

defiant to the end we hear the call

i think that's The Black Parade talking, telling The Patient, "hey. kid. stop being so hateful. it's killing us. we're going to keep on remembering you and everyone who's died."

and though you're broken and defeated

your weary widow marches on

aww. that's so sad.

and then i think the part that starts with "do or die, you'll never make me"...  that seems almost the way that it's sung as if it's a two part banter between The Parade and The Patient.

Patient: Do or die, you'll never make me. Because the world will never take my heart.

Parade: Go and try

Patient: You'll never break me. (And i think the "you" here refers to the world)

Parade: We want it all, we wanna play this part

Patient: I won't explain or say I'm sorry. I'm unashamed. I'm gonna show my scar--

Parade: Give a cheer for all the broken. Listen here, because it's who we are.

Patient: I'm just a man, I'm not a hero. Just a boy who had to sing this song. I'm just a man. I'm not a hero.

Parade: I. Don't. CARE.

maybe at the last part, The Patient is like "wait shit, i'm not who you think i am."

but The Parade is all "WE DON'T CARE. TELL YOUR FUCKING STORY."

ok, well so much for not going in depth into that song.

i like my thoughts on that song though.

it makes me happy.

you guys are going to have to give me major feedback about what you think about what i have to say.

next issss... I Don't Love You

and my internet is being a fucking spaz.

i swear to god i'm going to shoot it.

i think i'm going to PUNCH SOMETHING.

IHATEMYFUCKINGINTERNET!!!!!!!

GODDAMNIT!

ok i think it settled down.

ok i heard that this is MCR's unconfirmed next single?

to be released the same day as disenchanted?

i don't know.

but i do adore this song.

mmm. this is kind of a sad song. i thought that cancer was after welcome to the black parade and i got all excited because that really fit with it.

but i think i can see this too.

ok, so basically... i think that The Patient is remembering back to a time when he was with this kind of... wrong? girl. or like a girl who wasn't good for him.

and maybe when you get back

i'll be off to find another way

you're still the good-for-nothing i don't know

i think both this girl and The Patient were bad for each other because he tells her to "get out while [she] can"

it basically sounds like a tragic breakup song. like they used to be in love. and then they just fell apart. or something.

when  you go

would you even turn to say

"i don't love you

like i did

yesterday"

but it seems as though he's got a hard time ridding himself of her... and her abusive ways?

i'm kind of pulling this out of my ass because that's just what i see in the lyrics.

i'm sure there's something else here, but i'm not gee and i can't see that.

sometimes i cry so hard brom pleading

so sick and tired of all the needless beating

but baby when they knock you

down and out

it's where you ought to stay

i guess they're both trying to owe up to the fact that they just don't love each other anymore.

and when you go

would you have the guts to say

"i don't love you

like i loved you

yesterday"?

ok now we're onto House of Wolves

one of my personal favorites.

it's just so much fun.

i think maybe after his remembering of his tragic breakup with the addictive girl in I Don't Love You, The Patient is wondering if he's fucked and if he's going to go to hell.

he sounds slightly hysterical here.

i think also there's another person singing here... maybe some demons, or the wolf-devil himself.

well, i think i'm gonna burn in hell.

everybody burn the house right down

tell me i'm an angel

take this to my grave

tell me i'm a bad man,

kick me like a stray

i think the part about an angel is him being like "yeah right. i'm no fucking angel."

well.

you know.

actually as i type this, i've completely changed my mind...

i'll be damned if The Patient even talks at all in this...

i think it's mostly... demons in "hell" that are talking through this.

and when they say tell me i'm an angel i think they're being all clever, or at least they think they are. they sound like nasty little things.

man, but i bet The Patient is scared SHITLESS.

you better fun like the devil

'cause they're never gonna leave you alone

you better hide up in the alley

'cause they're never gonna find you a home

and as blood runs down the walls

you see me creepin' up these halls

i've been a bad motherfucker

tell your sitster i'm another.

number one, those last two lines i think are my favorite part of the whole song.

and number two, i think that the demons or whatever they are, are trying to basically scare the shit at new comers who come to hell. or who are on their way to hell, you know?

and they're doing an EXCELLENT job, let me tell you.

ok. yeah. that's about it.

next issss Cancer.

god, sad song.

ok i think this is definitely The Patient talking. obvs.

i mean, there's not a lot to say about this song.

it's so brutally honest that you can't really add anything.

oh, my agony.

know that i will never marry

baby, i'm just soggy from the chemo

MAMA!!

oh my god, i ADORE this song so much.

i just have to say that.

it's still my favorite.

basically... i'm not sure if The Patient is talking... or if he's met someone who's saying this.

i think it's probably the latter...

anyways, whoever it is who's talking is basically like "war's a bitch and it should die."

and it's basically like. mmm. yeah, no that's about it.

it's a semi-conversation between a mother and son.

well mother, what did the war to my legs and to my tongue?

you should've raised a baby girl

i should've been a better son

and then the mother does talk, and it's actually my favorite part of the song:

you ain't no son of mine

for what you've done they're gonna find

a place for you

and just you mind your manners when you go

and when you go, don't return to me, my love.

aww. that's sad, that last part.

i mean, it's obvious the guy who's talking is scared shitless and just wants to go home.

but there's shit that i've done with this fuck of a gan

you would cry out your eyes all along

i think it's also kind of condemning mankind in genearl for warfare because it's just... so, so, so destructive

we're damned after all

through fortune and flame

it's a tragic acceptance of death for soldiers.

we all carry on

when our brothers in arms are gone

so raise your glass high

for tomorrow we die

and return from the ashes you call

and now we have Sleep

for some reason the first line, some say, now suffer all the children, is my favorite line. and i don't know why.

the beginning of it is... i don't know. lex, is that gee talking?

i can't tell. i feel bad. it semi-sounds like him.

or i'd say frankie.

but i think everyone's frankie.

XD

hmm. i think the hardest part about this is figuring out who's talking...

it could be The Patient. for some reason, i think he's talking to his lover? or maybe his best friend.

and through it all

how could you cry for me?

'cause i don't feel bad about it.

i think... The Patient is kind of like... i'm not sure. this is one of the only songs i'm like "meh?"

i'll leave it open.

my other favorite part of it though is "three cheers for tyranny, unapologetic apathy."

aha. Teenagers.

i do adore this song.

a lot.

for some reason i think this is just another person that The Patient meets in his "in between life and death" stage who's all like "god damnit, teenagers scare the living shit out of me."

it's pretty great. i love it. because it's so true.

plus i can totally see Gee just sitting on the subway with his notebook and his hoodie pulled up over his head and watching all of these kids get on the subway and him being all "... shiaaaat."

the boys and girls in the clique

the awful names that they stick

you're never gonna fit in much, kid

but if you're troubled and hurt

what you've got under your shirt

will make them pay for the things that they did

and. my favorite part is another cog in the murder machine and when gerard is all "ALL TOGETHER NOW!"

it's just great.

Disenchanted is supposed to be their next single and i'm uber excited.

it's pretty different than any song that MCR's put out there yet.

totally looking forward to it.

i basically think that this is The Patient looking back on his life in general.

and basically saying... i'm not really sure.

it sounds like a statement about life.

another one open.

gah Famous Last Words! LOVE!

ok. i basically think that this is The Patient's affirmation that he's not ready to die yet and that he's got a lot more living to do.

it's SUCH a hopeful song that he just can't die after it.

i think that he knows that he will die... and that that time might be pretty soon... but at that moment, he's not going to die and that at that moment, he's going to do everything in his power to keep on living.

i am not afraid to keep on living

i am not afraid to walk this world alone

honey, if you stay, i'll be forgiven

nothing you can say can stop me going home

and for the hell of it, i'll just do Blood.

i think it's The Patient on way too much painkillers, actually.

it's kind of great.

and saying "wow. um. please get me out. because they're taking my blood."

or something.

the doctors and the nurses they adore me so

but it's really quite alarming

because i'm such an awful fuck!

(oh, thank you!)

bahaha great.

ok wtf. this had a POINT.

right. originally i was going to talk about Heaven Help Us. wow. ok i fail.

SO ANYWAYS.

i think Heaven Help Us is really an affirmation that The Patient really didn't die.

i think he's just like woken up from his "almost dead" state and is like "WTFALIVE?!"

but i can't tell if i've been

breathing

or sleeping

or screaming

or waiting for the man to call

and maybe all of the above

it just seems he's like "wait, i've been doing what? i thought i was dead?"

ok anyways. that was the point of that whole rant.

and i just want to say... that i am not a hypocrite.

and i really, really really DO detest the analyzation (i can't speeell) of books and poems.

but i mean, i'm not forcing my interptation on anyone. that's just what i think the songs mean to me. you guys can have a totally different meaning to them.

that's what SO great about MCR songs.

they can mean so many totally different things.

and i'm not taking like every single word and analyzing word for word.

because then all your left with is words.

i just wanted to figure out what the songs were genearlly saying.

and i did. and i feel much better.

anyways, i started this entry yesterday.

and i had to finish it today because my interet shitted out.

um. i was going to say other things in this entry, but now i don't remember what they were.

besides I SAW HEROES LAST NIGHT! YAY!

it was pretty good? yeah? all of the heroes are FINALLY all coming together. it's great.

and i feel sorry for matt. he's my favorite.

and YAY for zack coming back to be with claire. i like him. he's great.

and next week's episode looks great.

and... i think that's it?

i don't have any icons for you.

but. that's ok.

oh. well actually.

just have to give like a little/major shout out to alexis.

because. she's pretty dandy.

we're on the same wavelength like all the time.

and it's A LITTLE SCARY.

but still pretty great.

1. my chemical romance

2. fall out boy

3. harry potter

4. lord of the rings

5. latin

6. lots of other things that i can't think of right now.

whatevs. she's kind of the coolest kid i know.

i still think we're fraternal twins.

i mean. hello.

AIDEN.

i was in history the other day, and lex wasn't there because she was SKIPPING... (you're a whore by the way). and i felt so oddly incomplete.

i don't know WHAT i would have done if i hadn't had switched all my classes at the beginning of the year and stalked you. hahaha.

ok that's about it.

taking the fucking SAT on saturday.

justttt kill me.

shit load of history homework tonight.

if the internet stops working, i'm going to throw a FIT.

which means i should start right NOW.

ok. that's about it.

leave love.

<33 laura

Currently Listening The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance Sleep see related

i've decided that i love posting.

a lot.

:)

ok, let's see.

i still can't go into deets about friday night lights.

lex and i are going to watch it tomorrow night.

and i promise you she's going to cry.

and we're going to watch the illusionist.

which i have seen.

and which is SO GOOD!

why does rufus sewell always play a bad guy? it makes me sad. :(

ok umm...

let's see...

right, um, it's FUCKING cold in fucking TEXAS.

we had a snow day... yesterday.

damn, i'm sure i had something really interesting to talk about.

but i guess not.

this fails.

OH I REMEMBER WHAT I WAS GOING TO POST ABOUT!

ok a few... weeks? ago or something, i wrote a little review for the new MCR CD.

and it was only a little while after i had listened to it for a few times.

but i've learned a lot more about the band as people and also their CD as a whole. so that post really doesn't eve begin to cover the depth of it.

so thus, i will post icons and then type out a better review.

my loverly MCR fans, comment me and tell me what you think.

i really hate lyric analysis.

well, i hate it when people debate it.

a song is what it makes you feel.

so i think it's okay to discuss it... a bit.

but if you begin to pick it apart, it loses the magic.

so. i won't pick it apart, but i'll definitely touch on the underlying themes.

but first.

i have to empty the dishwasher.

*empties*

pwnd and done.

now ok.

onto the reviewwww...

no, i changed my mind.

i'm bored. and i have to do homework. so i can do other things.

so no MCR review.

sorry. whatevs. the only think i wanted to say again was that:

1. teenagers actually isn't a happy go lucky song which i didn't realize until like. two weeks ago. i'm kind of an idiot. (not really) but i just wasn't listening very carefully.

i still think it's a country song on CRACK

2. i think my favorite song is still MAMA

it's AMAZINGGGG.

plus LIZA.

WITH A Z.

3. disenchanted as the next single = AMAZING!

that is all i have to say.

other than mikey adored this song so much that he pushed really hard to get it on the album.

yay mikey!

ok. iconsssssss.

comment back please.

and if you TAKE them, you must CREDIT

or else i will send BOB BRYAR after you and tell him that you filmed him secretly.

because we all know he doesn't like to be filmed.

it's actually quite funny.

life on the murder scene? greatness.

OH i finally watched that... last weekend?

pure fucking greatness.

frankie's adorable.

gerard made me cry.

mikey's the cutest dork ever.

ray is a fucking genius

bob gets violent whenever people film him and is super de duper cool.

i think one of my favorite parts was when ray & gerard were singing in the dressing room.

THEY WERE SO FUCKING GOOD.

WTF.

i was like "SAY WHAT."

ray really is a music fucking beast.

it's ridiculous.

OKICONSWHAT.

:) i heart him a lot.

wtf. i just realized that his "halloween" tattoo isn't here.

haha. gerard. what a weird kid.

love! i do adore this icon.

he's so CUTE. like you just want to HUG him because he's so damn CUTE!

i adore this one too.

frankie. <33

hahahahahha. i adore this picture more than life itself.

if only i could be that dino... for real.

heh. love.

ok that's itttt!

ok. um. comment.

because i'm a whore.

i have to go do a history project and study for physics.

AND NOT READ HUCK FINN!

YAY.

pwnd.

<33 laura

Currently Listening Saosin By Saosin You're Not Alone see related

everyone who posted a comment on my last entry made me terribly happy.

i feel a lot better now. i think i was just having a depressing mood or something. it's still kind of lingering, but i think i'm getting over it.

my mom helped me kind of see that school is basically helping you to think differently and exposing you to different things.

i just think the thing that i can't get over is my english class.

which i HATE.

wtf english is usually my FAVORITE class!

i love to write!

you kids know this!

but we're still doing analytical writing. and finding themes. and disecting books.

i've been doing this since SEVENTH grade.

and i finally realized why i hate the class is because i'm literally BORED of it.

i've matured passed the point of this kind of writing.

and i'm just bored of the writing. it's not really challenging to me.

and there is a creative class at my school... but i've read the things that they've written. and it's just really not my style of writing.

they write about... material things. like they describe physical things.

and... i don't know that kind of stuff just seems so pointless to me.

i don't really care if the desk is a dark brown mahogany with aged lines that made it look like an ancient and old grandfather with rusting bronze curved handles and sat parallel to the sun in the room with the bright new green curtains that looked like acidic waste.

i mean. i definitely use description in my writing. don't get me wrong.

it's pretty damn important.

but i just don't concentrate on it.

because it bores me.

i like to focus on emotions.

i like to focus on the relationships between characters and the development from one stage to another.

i like to make a character into someone and not just this static stereotype.

i just... i don't know.

i hate writing descriptive stuff.

it's so pointless.

that's not what people remember about stories.

i mean, it definitely adds stuff to the story.

but people aren't like "whoa remember that great description about that desk?!"

no. people are like "my god. i like cried when muleac talked about his internal demons."

i mean helloooooo.

lol. lex.

dane cook.

"um hellooooo?"

ok so but...

here let's move onto a less depressing topic.

ok, that's a lie, it's kind of more depressing.

but... ok WHATEVER.

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS.

wait. damn. i can't write about this until alexis has seen it.

i'll basically just say that GARRETT HEDLUND is my new favorite actor.

he is just so FUCKING good at what he does.

he made me cry like five times in that movie.

his character is so fucking heartbreaking.

plus. it doesn't hurt that he's ridiculously amazingly and incredibly hot.

XD

ok umm... another kind of pointless entry... i'm surprised i got so many comments on my last one...

anyways, i do have a treat for you.

a frank iero icon.

it's my hero.

basically.

it's on my last.fm and i basically just go there to look at it.

it's so goddamn pretty.

and if you don't have a last.fm, go get oneeee! they're so cool!

and then friend me! so i can have more than seven friends!

anyways.

here's the icon:

*lovessssssss*

ok goodbye foreverrrrr.

but not really.

OH. i was going to do something else.

here. hang there for just a second while i take a picture of something...

wow that took forever.

and WTF.

we had no school today because of SNOW!!!

AND!

my LATIN test was cancelled for tomorrow

my PHYSICS test was moved

and my history homework was postponed

YAY!!!

ok and now this has been my new obsession to do.

(hahaha YAY for the 94 in latin!)

it's just pen.

lol.

but if i ever WAS going to get a tattoo...

that's what it'd be.

that's how much gerard inspires me.

everytime i see that as i do whatever it is that i'm doing, i stop to think "wow. i'm inspired."

ok that's it!

sorry if my hand is disgustingggg.

<3333 laura